lesters sis wake
kinda scared to go
very different when its someone u noe and someone u dunno death
not about scared of ghosts or wdv shit
but wad to say
i didnt even dare msg him
i felt right useless

at least i think hes better now
i probably wont be who im wifout him
wanted to stay over
but not allowed
nvm
hope next time i will get more guts
if i have to see a next time that is

things seems to be getting worse
dunno
its my fault anyway
some bastard i was
for better or worse
ill hold on through
no matter wad

i got tons of work now
but i cant even bring myself to open the document

cant wait for elective week
i need a break
i think we all do

this is stupid
blogging to myself alone